There's not much of a choice in the first place.
I just have to do it, be it good or bad.
So just whack it. I'm gonna do this well and have a 5 freaking months break!

For the next one and a half months it'll just be study study study.
Good luck to myself and anyone out there who needs it.

Going to shower and get started on Art.
Enjoy your week! x

I get so helpless when I can't voice out my thoughts, when I can't let it all out.
I hate it. I'm always screaming when nobody can hear.
Nobody knows how I feel deep down inside.
I'm really tired, tired of trying so hard.
Tired of always being the accused when I'm the victim.

Do I deserve all these?
Why, even you, the person who should be closest to me, hurt me so much, so deep?
Why? Why is life so cruel and unfair?
I just wanna be a kid.
I just wanna be happy, without worries, without having to bear the cruel truth.
But it seems exceedingly impossible now.

Sorry. Sorry for being so negative.
Sorry because I'm feeling a little too emotional tonight. 

I walked back almost alone on the empty road filled with houses and cars with my head filled with many, many thoughts.
Thoughts of the past, past that have hurt me really deep. 
This is just too much to bear. I've had enough.
 

One minute, life is beautiful. The next minute, life seems unfair cruel ugly and disgusting.
What an irony.